I could feel it all day, this seemingly gentle tug that was strong enough to be aware of. The urge to snap at the tiniest of issues. The disconnect between my heart and my interactions with the people around me. The swirly and almost numbing feeling. The temptation to fully check out and disengage. It … Continue reading If Only Escaping Was The Answer To June 28th
Precious girl- tomorrow you're going to get some news that will rock your world. It's going to feel unbearable and it's going to unearth your deepest fear but I want you to know you're going to make it to the other side. You don't need to know how, or even what the other side looks … Continue reading What Would I Say
Riddle me this, just one year ago I sat in my bedroom looking around at the clutter of stuff I'd acquired. The books. The picture frames. The papers and folders. The shoes. The clothes. It felt like there was so much stuff to gather as I was suddenly jolted into a tizzy realizing I had very little time … Continue reading I think they call it Déjà Vu
184 days. Six months. Half a year. What do these numbers really even mean? That time is passing? That life is carrying on? That the gap between the day I said goodbye and 'today' is widening? I know these numbers will only get bigger, and at some point 'months' will be followed by 'years'. It's … Continue reading They’re Just Numbers
For the past four years, around this exact time, I've engaged in a wrestle with the Lord around the concept of raising support for a short term mission trip. Every year I get anxiety at the thought of asking people for money, yet every year I end up overwhelmed by His faithfulness and encouraged by … Continue reading Losing a dad. Losing a king. Different yet similar.
It's been a long time since I've faced this computer while embracing an ugly cry. A long time since I cleared my mind from the clutter of life picking back up and let my thoughts linger for too long around my dad dying. A long time since I've let myself really breakdown and feel the void … Continue reading It’s been a long time
I remember this moment so vividly. It was a desperate attempt to feel as close and connected as I possibly could to the last man I ever wanted to lose. To the only man that has loved me for all my life, for all my flaws, for all my perfections, and through my many imperfections. … Continue reading Warms Tears